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Oh hey actually everything's not shit! I might even stick to that opinion for 24 hours! 

So I actually connected well with Kass today. I honestly didn't really know where I stood with him, I knew he was not crazy about Riju but I was still feeling nervous. Luckily, I think our views of just the game in general (this one and the broader game of Survivor) mesh well. He said he felt good about me early on, which I didn't necessarily get, and we got to talk out the whole thing about people thinking I'm sketchy because I supposedly told Karson he was going. He was very sympathetic about it, and really made me feel a whole lot better.

RWH basically could tell that Kass wanted and has wanted Riju out and got out in front of it, he offered to align with me, which I enthusiastically accepted, and suggested a trio with Kass, which I also enthusiastically accepted. Kass helped here too by saying the thing that had made RWH apprehensive about me was that I hadn't proposed actively working together (and I mean, the reason was because I thought he was wanting to vote me out, which I think was definitely true, but I do trust that now we've committed to each other that that's no longer the case). 

Hunnie was basically MIA today, I think she was busy? Everything worked out though really.

As for Riju, she'd floated Hunnie's name to me, I said I was open to it, then she followed up shortly before the challenge deadline saying she hoped we'd work together on this vote and I agreed. I guess we'll blindside her telling her the vote is Hunnie? I'm determined to avoid building on that shitty reputation with Karson so I ain't saying fucking shit. 

So one thing that has been apparent to me at this point is that my reads are goddamn awful in this game. I felt good the first time I played, which largely took place on Discord, and I might be a lot worse at the forum game. It's possible I was just lucky the first time that I got swapped with people I would click with, but I do think having the back and forth of real time conversation suits my play better. The anonymous aspect makes it a bit tougher too, which I expected. I dunno, I'm just saying that I was too cocky my first go around and this time has been fuckin humbling. That said, I feel like I'm in a good spot right now, which means we're gonna swap after this and I'm gonna feel like a dumb fuckin idiot for another two days lol

Everything's shit again, lmao

I do everything on a laptop and don't have a mouse (and also I kinda suck generally at challenges) so mazes are definitely not my forte, and this whole thing of designing a maze is simultaneously a really cool and inventive idea and also seems like a giant amount of work that you're gonna feel like a moron about if you lose. I love this concept as a spectator but hate it as a player. 

I talked some with Link and Patricia, not a whole lot but just going over our past tribes. I worry a little that I might come off gamebotty just jumping straight into strategy but I'm hoping people just see that as where we are in the game. 

First impressions (beyond the brief interactions we had during that free-for-all period a few tribals ago), Patricia seems cool and smart. Link seems like whatever. Oaki had talked up about how Link makes everyone think he's their friend, etc. but I don't see it.

Honestly, I've been underwhelmed by the OG Courage tribe, they're supposed to be the social players but I've met as many socially-likable OG Power as OG Courage. Royal White Horse was like "oh yeah everyone on courage is so great to talk to" and tbh a) I don't get why he was on that tribe, an b) I don't think they are. Oaki was great, I enjoyed talking to Sidon a lot when we were able to, and Riju was pretty good too (but like, her lack of social connection with Kass sent her home, so was she?). Mipha seems like more of a social player than half the Courage tribe. 

Anyway, this challenge is very cool but very shitty for me and I'm not optimistic. The weird thing is I'm looking at the other tribes and I could potentially be good with all of them, I have at least one advocate from my most recent tribe on each other tribe I think? Maybe everything isn't shit. There, I've officially gone back and forth within the space of one confessional. But if I get voted out it was officially shit. 

Well we're apparently settled on voting Urbosa. I honestly don't even know if Link and Patricia will vote that way (well, Patricia will), but it's our best chance. I'm crossing my fingers this doesn't tie but that seems unlikely. If it does, and the vote isn't on me, I'll probably flip? I really don't know. And the thing is, if you flip and an equal number of people on the other tribe flip, it still goes to fuckin rocks. I guess we'll get another 24 hours to revote and if I can vote I'll maybe just post in the thread "I'm flipping" and that's that.

My fingers are crossed that Kass throws away his vote and knows how much he means to me and that I wouldn't let it be on him, but that's honestly a fantasy, not necessarily that he doesn't know that I value him a lot, but just that if the vote isn't on me, why wouldn't he vote with them? Maybe if Urbosa and Kohga push hard on it.

Oh yikes, I just happened to look at my last conversation with Kass and I told him I felt solid with Urbosa because he'd asked specifically about her, I think I didn't want to sound like a shit-stirrer? We'll see how this goes.

Let’s assume that you get back into the game this round.

1. What went wrong last time? How will you change your game to make sure you’re not sent back out of the game?

2. You’ve had time to talk to other Ghosts, is there anything in particular you have learned from them that you’re going to use when you get back in?

3. 2 Players are coming back into the game, who would you want to join you when you make it back in? What’s the game plan, will you work with them long-term, or only as long as you need?

4. Do you have a revenge plan? Anyone you want to take out ASAP? Or in failing that, anyone who seems to be the biggest threat that you wish to take out?

5. Who in the game would you like to work with the most?

You made the Jury!

We would hate for you to feel left out so have some confessional questions.

1) Do you have any regrets from your game? If you played it again, how would you play it differently? Is there anything you are particularly proud of?

2) What twists are you hoping to come up for the final 9?

3) How do you feel about your other jury members?

4) Are there any secrets from your game that you're holding from the other Jury members?

5) Who do you think will be the next player to join the Jury?

6) Who do you think will make the FTC?