E13: we're either here to play nice or we're here to win

Fuck this is so frustrating. I feel like all the time effort and anxiety I put into this didnt matter at all because urbosa has a pile of items and the game was over at f10 and why did I waste my time with any of it because she doesnt even have to play survivor well or have social dynamics.

You're definitely never going to see me in another complex game. Just an utterly miserable time. Someone somewhere in this process needed to say no or stop and they just didn't. Theres just no upper bound on what complex is allowed to mean, and being all but mechanically eliminated just ism't fucking fun.

Anyway it looks like my choices here are vote sidon out or basically fall on my sword for him.

That's basically what I'm looking forward to lambasting her about at the end. She assures me I'm just so great and I own her heart forever, does stuff behind my back she knows I don't want. Says it again, is oh so sorry, treats me like a goat again and makes zero attempt to include me in any of her plans again. And now here she is still implying she wants to give me the moon when it couldn't be any more obviously untrue, as she is literally out here stealing my items and doing everything she can to sink me. The relationship we've had is not a partnership; it is manipulation of a pawn on a chessboard. 

I didn't ask for a final 2, I just accepted it, and I haven't reciprocated these overtures of extreme love because I didn't want to promise things I didn't know if I could deliver.

If you're not even willing to tell me the moon comes out at night, don't promise to give it to me. This is how you burn jury votes. 

Mipha basically just told me she won't go to rocks.

Shit. That means I can keep him if I want to. Oh no.

when you said this was a bastard game i didn't realize *i* was going to be the bastard

If I vote Revali out here, I'm faced with a Mipha who doesn't believe she has any chance to win. If I arrow Urbosa, and Sidon wins immunity, she's gone and I'm in that terrible situation mentioned above with a really really difficult path to victory AND i still have to beat epona at rupees to even get that. If Sidon does not win immunity, he is gone anyway, and the situation is the same as if I voted him out now except that maybe the person who survives the idolpocalypse is Revali instead of Mipha which is not even important.

If I vote Sidon out here, victory looks very elusive still. Either way, I unfortunately have little choice but to try to beat Urbosa at FTC. I don't think she has played a great game, but I think it will be very difficult to convince the jury her apparent dominance is not worth anything. Next round, we surely still lose Revali or Mipha, and honestly, there's kind of no difference. The only difference is that in this scenario Sidon may not vote for me to win, and we avert the possibility that he wins immunity putting me in what is effectively a drawing dead situation.

really wish mipha had had the sense to pretend she'd go to rocks here

the one time i want to be lied to