E9: the only time machine we'll likely be allowed to have

probably spent more time talking to the jigsaw than to patricia

Huh... that gives me an idea....

Hunnie wanted to do Epona at the start, but they're telling her Kass now, apparently. I am definitely a little worried someone will see this as a chance to get him out. And Hunnie might idol him, too. Ugh, what a kick in the face it would be to not even get to have him on the jury.

Because Kass could potentially have the Power idol, there is a scenario where I could give it to him and play it off that it was his all along. That seems extremely dangerous all to get out, what, like, Epona? Something I also don't want right now? If they leave me in the dark on a Kass vote I am making a final 2 with revali literally tomorrow.

i wanted going urbosa here to be my Big Move and also my Thing I Did Without Epona in case i accidentally end up at ftc with her

I can't talk to anyone in the game about it without revealing too much, but this tribal is just devastating.

All four of them seem to trust me so much. If any of them don't genuinely see me in their endgame plans right now, they are doing an Oscarworthy job because I'm fucking sold.

I don't like to hurt people. All of my options are savage betrayals. I made too many friends. I don't know who to get out when all of them like me and all of them seem to benefit my game right now.

And to have to do a charade for Hunnie so she doesn't idol is even worse. God I feel like shit.

If I try to leave my heart at the door,
I don't want Epona out because she's the biggest target in the game and I'm starting to think I might be doing well, yes I do change my mind about this every 5 seconds. Once she goes, I think everyone will have way too much time to look at me.
I don't want Hunnie out because she's an option outside the group that's generally dominating the game. I think I could beat her at the end and it really seems like she doesn't see herself as an underdog. I'm worried about being locked in with that group more or less till the end, which is what I foresee happening if I lose her.
Kass has been so good to me, and I feel I can count on him above all else to be true. I think I have a chance against him at the end because he's made a few sloppy decisions and might continue to be in danger throughout the game.

And all of them seem okay at keeping my secrets; I'm starting to think I was wrong about Hunnie leaking to Urbosa, since she's now leaking Urbosa to me quite freely and trusting me with a lot of info.

I even trust Urbosa quite a bit too! She really seems to want to go to the end with me. The reason I would probably go for her if I could is that I think she's lowkey positioned quite well and could win the game, and I trust her ever so slightly less than the others.

A big deciding factor here I guess is that saving Hunnie would be a move and would really upset the apple cart and screw the whole game up. When I started talking to her a lot last round, doing this was part of my pitch to her, and I meant it! But watching everyone on this tribe seem to trust me so powerfully makes me feel like I might not be doing so bad after all. And I have to worry about splitting my alliance, making enemies, and potentially opening a giant crack for Oaki & co. that lets them back into contention. But my belief I need Epona as a shield is a big part too. I've honestly barely entertained voting for Kass. I'm sure I probably should entertain it. :/

fuck me. why do i have to carve my own heart out to do well at survivor.

Hunnie:


Also, what is this shit?

*tries to vote for urbosa* why won't the pen write it