these? yep, still my confessions

1. i hate it. i almost felt sick. scratch that, i did feel sick. back in my day, i wouldve clipped someone no problem when they misplayed by giving me an advantage. now, i just wish oaki was here and i hadnt made that decision, even though it was better for my own game. im a conflicted prince.

2. im not worried for anyone. fuck everybody. that last tc turned off whatever feelingsreceptors i have in my body. i will say weirdly getting rid of oven here is a daunting prospect bc i think last round turned me into a gamebot, which makes me relate to oven more?

3. what i wanted to happen is patricia goes home. but that's clearly not happening now. all three other votes suck my absolute asshole, and not in a fun way. i hate this tc only slightly than the last.

4. yes im fucking thinking about merge. i have the legacy advantage saying it's usable at 13. either we hit that next round with a returnee, or like 4 people are coming back at the same time. in either case, ahhahaha, fucking kill me.

5. id sacrifice patty to bring back oaki.

6. im not likely to play it this round. i didnt play it last round when i was more nervous. maybe that's a sign i should play it. but i feel like i have a better grip on the game with oaki gone because he's not telling me "oh hey dont talk to this person let me work on them". so i have firsthand accounts here. i also just dont think anyone other than patti and maybe oven would be targeting me right now.